Friday, January 21, 2005
Rain on me
on this parade
charade under the marmalade sky
clean and sweet this rain
my companion rain
light aglow
my show
my spotlight
fierce and fiery
ashes and sinew
Burn and brew
Birth to you
Here be there
collected life
unsolicited advice
But this life I live
this rasp I breathe
The burden of pretense
a death of life
reminds me of rain on me, light aglow, from birth to you
Posted at 07:07 pm by zoinktrix
Friday, January 14, 2005
walk in place
look for things now in another time
run around
touch my skin
kiss my soul
distant cry of my tortured self.
Jaded...I feel far away
Near to myself but far away
close to breath but from life so far away
tears hot
tears cold
tears not mine
tears denied
tears surreal
Is this I?
Do I hurt?
pain within?
alive?
pain within myself survive?
but so far away
far away
so far way
distant tortured self.
Posted at 09:05 am by zoinktrix
Sunday, December 26, 2004
The parable of Christmas, death and the like
a cold device
dangled hope, such is.
visited upon those in despond's grip.
a mourning for a better day.
remembered old times,
but with faces dressed in garlands of bitterness.
Is death such a device or is it not?
Has Christmas been a tradition of emptiness,
knowing the day but not the author.
Giving seen as debt owed.
Receiving as was in the manner of popular things.
A way we all walk
the like of such things
the sun's rays as on anyother
a sound as noise
Never rhetorical at the proper time in the proper way
In the manner of popular things.
Posted at 03:27 pm by zoinktrix
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Why does it seem that my whole inbox is empty and all the mail I got is spam? There was someone I was waiting for...for that someone to write...and she didn't.
Posted at 07:17 am by zoinktrix
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Today I died in my dream, as the bullet of a 45 took out my 25.
Posted at 06:45 am by zoinktrix
Monday, November 15, 2004
I quit my job today to start a phase of time and life.
I again realize the fact that all things have to change and they do. This law of change remains though we hold it back.
I am afraid and anxious...
Expectant in a way...
of the things that might come my way.
The way I have chosen to walk demands the highest.
My boss will be a carpenter and my co-workers fishers of men.
But I am just a man with short comings. Failure has been a close friend...rejection my companion. But hope's embrace is upon me.
And yes I would dare to hope...
And yes I would dare.
Peace never came at the price of compromise.
My path is to find that peace.
I will hope not to compromise.
Posted at 07:22 pm by zoinktrix
Thursday, November 11, 2004
The best things in life often require the price of sacrifice. One must choose another over the other.
Choice has been and is the ultimate thing that molds man. Who he is and why he is has been debated time and again by the constraints of choice made and choice ignored.
Hay life is difficult talaga. I often wonder where result ends and where a brand new choice begins. It can be confusing how result and choice run together in a maelstrom of a human life.
I think man's greatest difficulty has been over the struggle within. We all know what's good and bad. The idea of the result is often preconceived even before the choice is presented. BUT we all manage to and desire (admit if people) to do something that in the end will add to the burden of our existence.
It's not such a big a thing to do the right. Right?...WHY THEN do we all have this wasteland of bad choices within us. Has not logic proven itself time and again? But more than logic, has not goodness, justice and mercy shown where the best way lies.
The struggle within is this. That the boone of choice must not be a bane.
or so according to things seen
Posted at 01:04 am by zoinktrix
Sunday, November 07, 2004
There is the temptation to
write about anything and everything...
But one cannot be incoherent.
One must not rave after all...mahirap maging malabo diba?
We have not learned the discrepancies of a language to just loose the meaning of ourselves. It is not to hide ourselves behind the mediocrity of words but to show our humanity in them. We are not mere freakshows. We are personal and receptive to anything and everything and this truth we must reveal.
This blog is a mere try to achieve that clarity.
Not at the convenience of self or of anyone, but for the sake of the attempt.
Tama na pasakalye...:)
Blog on y'all
Posted at 03:25 pm by zoinktrix
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Wednesday, November 03, 2004
today I will start building a decent blog...well at least one that I'll appreciate...:)
Posted at 04:27 pm by zoinktrix
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